One of my favorite quotes about the act of writing goes something like this:
“Writing is like driving a car at night. You never see further than your headlights, but you can make the whole trip that way.”
It makes sense. You write, back up, go another way, ask for help, but keep on day after day, until you get where you want to be with the work you value so much.
Being a new Christian can be like this process of writing. For instance, at the moment things are bumpy and my life is less than perfect. I’m divorced and I can feel lonely and disapproved of at times. I also have a degree but am unemployed. It can and, at times, does hurt.
This week I felt overwhelmed. I tried to find comfort and talked to a friend who texted me and said: “Sometimes we need to lose it all in order to gain what God wants us to have. It wasnt exactly what I wanted to hear but what, deep down, I needed. That is why he is such a valuable friend. He gave me truth. I am, by all accounts, completely stripped of my former life. But if I had not lost it all would I have completely turned my life over to God? That is a question I could easily lie to myself about.
In this past week of feeling the pain and acknowledging the loss, I came across a passage from Psalm 119: